Sleep Pattern Screwed Up …Again
I am a night owl. Absolutely and thoroughly. But I’m starting to dislike it. I’d like to try changing my internal clock so that it’s more like other people’s.
I can’t “do” mornings anymore. And if I have to, it screws me up even more. For you see, despite being a night owl, I need at least 8 hours’ sleep every 24 hours. Last Thursday to Friday, for instance, I went to bed at 2:00 a.m. and got up at 7:30 because I had to pound out a handout for a meeting at 11:30. So when I came back from my meeting, I managed to get a bit of work done but had to have a nap …which lasted 2.5 hours …which gave me a total of 8 hours. But then when I get up from such a nap, I’m fine for a good 12 hours, which again takes me to 4 or 5 a.m.
The spring time change always makes a bad situation worse, though. I fell asleep around 6 a.m. (new time) and got up around 12:30. Not enough… I was back in bed shortly after 3 p.m., unable to muster up enough concentration to work. And this time I slept until nearly 7 p.m. — I didn’t even hear the phone ring when my mother called around 6:30 — and now I’m completely screwed up.
For yes, I’m wide awake now and able to get some work done. But my “computer guy” could be coming to fix TextStyle1 any time between 9 a.m. and 5 p.m. And there’s no telling what shape I’ll be in once the sun rises.
The thing is, though, that I don’t dislike mornings per se; it’s a delightful time of day. It’s really not about that. Seven years ago, when I last held a 5-days-a-week 9-to-5 job, I would be a mess by Thursday even though I tried to get enough sleep. Even then it would take me weeks to “train” myself into a daytime routine, but one night to fall back into a nighttime pattern.
Perhaps what’s eating at me right now is that the list of non work-related things I want to accomplish by July 1 is getting too long. Or perhaps more accurately, the items on my list — shift my internal clock back 4 hours, try again to quit smoking and lose 15 pounds — cannot be accomplished simultaneously. Yet I don’t want to be a puffing beached whale that can only manage to arrive at this place at the crack of 3 p.m….