Today I came this close to not putting on a fresh NicoDerm patch — not because I was thinking of throwing in the towel on quitting, but because I was curious to try a little test. But, remembering one of the BeeGoddesses’ advice against weaning off the patch too quickly, I thought better of it.
This is my 7th day, so 6 days done and over with. But I have to be honest: In those 6 days, I’ve had a puff here and there, making one cigarette last anywhere between 5 and 8 hours in 3 or 4 sittings. If I hadn’t started my attempt to quit last Wednesday, I likely would have smoked at least 6*25=150 cigarettes — probably a few more. But in fact I’ve had only 8 over that time. Relatively speaking, that’s nothing!
So today I was wondering if I could sustain this negligeable rate of smoking without the help of the patch. Without the patch, the lowest number of daily smokes I reached was 12. But after nearly a week of “behaviour modification” with the patch, I can envision not feeling like smoking when I’m out, or every time something doesn’t go quite right. In other words, I can imagine myself being in control of my smoking to the point where I might only smoke a pack every 2 weeks — as one might have a Grand Marnier after dinner — as opposed to a pack or more every day.
Or, it could be that the patch is so effective that it’s giving me a false sense of confidence…